was only 5 hour in the morning, outside was spring and the weather seemed to be cool.
She opened her eyes, the first thing that she saw was the window and the light from the sun. That light still not that bright, that light that gave her a smile on her face. She stand up from the bed, took her red wrap and went to the window. Opening the window and feeling the cold wind on her face, it was simply amazing how the birds were singing in the morning. She loved it more than anything on this life, enjoying in the song.
Sit in the armchair that was in front of the window, staring in the sky that was with yellow and purple-blue color. Than with slow moves she went in the kitchen, took the box that was with the coffee and made herself a beautiful warm coffee. Like that still in her pajamas and with the wrap on her, opened the main door and stood in the balcony for a wile. She saw the beautiful fountain that her husband made on his own. What a beautiful flowers were covering here. Turned on the fountain and sited in the grass like a little child. Listened the murmur form the water. Drinking her coffee she went in the past, she went with her thoughts were he was there loving and caring for her. Oh how much she miss him, how much would be better if he was here.
Than Petty came, she jumped in her arms and started to purring. Her little Petty, her only one best friend that she had, that little cat she loved more than her own life. She was saving her life all the time even she was not aware of that.
-No, I won’t cry Petty! I gave you a promise that I will never cry! I promised you that I will be always here for you! I promised that I will care for you!
Poor Stacy she was thinking that she was making a good things for the Petty. But she was not aware that she was doing that only for her self.
Depression is the hard battle! She pushed all the friends away, she didn’t wanted to talk with them she was thinking that she is making a bad influence for them. She thought that she is making them sick with the fact that she is moody and she is having a problem with her own mood.
But that was she thinking, her friends are here still for her but she don’t want to interrupt them.
-So Petty are you hungry?
With the cat in her hands they moved in the house, she stood for a wile in the corridor and was watching the pictures of her and her loved husband.
-Oh, how much I miss you my dear Ben! I love you and I miss you so much, No Ben I won’t cry now, Petty is watching me.
Put some food in the owl for Petty and sited in front of her, and again thoughts were in her head.
Years and years ago in the past somewhere where Ben was there.
She was alcoholic, she was going in reliability and Ben was the major there where he was helping them and listening them.
She was young, she was only a teen and the childhood was a terror for her.
-What was you expecting Petty? My parents were both abusers, the were fighting every night. The told me that I was guilty for that, they said that they wish that I was never ever born. Yes Petty my dear. And then Ben came in my life, like an angle. Ben was my hero.
A tear was dancing on her face, Petty was sleeping that’s why she gave a tear to fall.
-That’s life Petty! That’s life!
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